Lama betul tak jengah sini. Ingatkan ruang ini telah dipadam, rupanya ada lagi. Tak rancang apa pun lagi aliran idea. Tengah RMO segala-galanya tepu. Diam tak diam dah 13 hari Kawalan Pergerakan dikenakan dek wabak durjana.
Awal minggu, alah bisa tegal biasa. Masuk minggu kedua ditambah dengan berita-berita duka, I have to say I'm entering depression zone. Bila duduk depan TV, mata dan kepala tidak melekat langsung kepada rancangan. Fikiran melayang ke mana-mana, which is negetive vibes.
Terlalu banyak berfikir, syaitan pun mulalah masuk jarum. Ada sampai ke satu tahap, menangis mengenangkan diri ditinggal keseorangan. Abang avoiding me to watch news and Facebook. He literally ask me to stop and do something else to remote my mind to other places.
Selera makan pun berkurangan. Last weekend is a peak. We spend almost RM400 but not only for food. We bought more on household item such as detergents, softerner, shampoo, clorox, detoll, dish soap, etc. Sebenarnya lebih kurang sama tiap-tiap bulan, bezanya dulu every weekend boleh keluar beli. Sekarang dilarang sama sekali so we buy on shot.
I missed all my routine! I missed my family!! We've been married for almost 6 years but we spend most our time with family. Sepanjang enam tahun, inilah pertama kali kena berjauhan dengan keluarga. Although I had a chance to see part of my family every alternate day, tapi tak sama :(
Masa sangat limited & I limit myself not to get close with them. Even worst we missed Cayyadh yang memang saban hari spend time with us. Most of weekend we'll kidnapped him and stay with us. Masuk minggu ni rasanya nak dekat sebulanlah dia tak datang sini.
Esok juga 1st day Work From Home (WFH). Tak boleh nak bayangkan macamana nak mengajar murid 5 dan 6 tahun di hadapan komputer. Tak ada human touch...hehehehe...but we have to cope with current situation, kalau tidak dapur tak berasap pula nanti.
Okay, lets publish. I dont mind if anybody did not read. Unplanned entry. Semoga kita semua diberi ketenangan di saat yang mencabar ini.
